My Dislocated Knee Accident

Last Saturday, I experienced one of the most physically painful day in my life by far.

Gano kasakit? 

Get my pain of being heart broken last 2012

multiply it by 10

SUPER DUPER SAKIT!


I cannot exactly describe how it happened.  We were just about to leave for my move in Pangasinan, when I realized PotPot's keys are missing so I called someone from the office to teach me how to turn off the alarm as I plan to drive the car with the duplicate keys without remote.  I was trying to reach the red alarm button sa may ilalim ng manibela while I was squatting outside the car, by the driver's seat (gets nio?), basta yun na yun. I made a wrong twist while I was on squat position and boom, naiwan na yung right knee cap ko sa gilid.  I was freaking scared and it is sooooo painful. 

Good thing Adrian has presence of mind and was able to bring our family car out in just a couple of minutes.  It took all my strength to move from the pick-up to our family car for Adrian to be able to bring me to the hospital.  While outside the hospital, I was screaming because of so much pain already.  They were trying to get me out the car to the wheelchair so they can get me x-rayed.  But by that time, the pain was almost doubled already.  One of the doctors had to go outside and assure me that he will hold the leg for me (because every inch hurts). 

Next challenge was to get me from the wheel chair to the x-ray bed.  By that time, ubos na ubos na ang lakas ko.  It took me mga 15 minutes, 10 tries and 5 different strategies to get myself to that bed.  Hindi na ko nagpatulong pa kahit kanino because super sakit na talaga at napakabagal tumalab ng pain killer.

Super swerte ko pa rin kasi when the x-ray person tried to straighten out my leg for the x-ray, bumalik na sa katinuan ang pasaway na tuhod ko.  Had I known ganon lang dapat gawin, sana kanina ko pa ginawa. 

I was so relieved to see Mama pagbukas na pagbukas ng x-ray room.  Sobra sobrang pain na ang naramdaman ko in just an hour!

Wala na sila kelangan gawin because when the x-ray came out, everything seems to be in the right place already.  Thank God wala naman nakitang fracture or anything.  We were sent home immediately.  Nakatulog ako agad because of pagod from the pain.

Later in the afternoon that day, mas masakit pa yung ulo ko because of pain reliever kesa sa tuhod ko.  Hilong hilong hilo ko.  Bow.

A Silent Sanctuary

There have been some announcements from the higher management in my office regarding my work locations.  It's not like they gave me a lot of options, but it is something I would need to confirm about. When they first told me about it, I gave them a big and resounding "NO".  But they were very mapilit and kept on telling me that I am their "best" and they need to send me to a region where they can maximize my skills.  Sounds so selfish of them.  I felt so alone, except for Nina who has been helping to get my points raised.

Nakakaloka to think about it. There are even days when I wanted to scream and just cry.  I just felt that I was being punished for working hard because all other supervisors had the option to choose where they want to be assigned and I am left with no choice.

UNFAIR.

Then B skipped classes and brought me to this special place in Tarlac.  The road to get there is not for someone who is just starting to learn how to drive, it is rough and steep.  Good thing our PotPot is new and very reliable. 

The place is such a silent sanctuary where you could sincerely pray and "feel" His answers.  As for me, I felt that He is again trying to teach me to just have a leap of faith and to trust that His plans are always better than mine. 

 

I know in the His right time,  I will have the answers to my questions. 

Tonight's Prayer

Lord God, thank you for keeping me safe when that car hit the taxi kanina.  Thank you for your constant reminder that I still have a mission and purpose in this life you're giving me.  Thank you for also reminding me that life can be really short so I really need to spend time with the people I really love.

Lord, I need not speak any word but I know you know what my heart and soul is feeling right now.  You know so well that I'm really tired of these heartache.  Please heal me Lord.  Day by day, I am trying to live and always trying to choose happiness.  But there are really times, like nights like these, that it gets really painful for my weary heart to bear.

I know that the pain is and will always be there.  I think that as time goes by, it doesn't necessarily disappear, I just get used to it.

For now, I am comforted by the fact that I know, in Your right time, all these pain will make sense. For now, please bless me with enough courage to face everyday with strong faith in your plan for me.

I also pray for the victims of Typhoon Yolanda.  Please help them start a new life.  May they feel your embrace in these trying times.

As always, I pray for my family.  Please continue guiding them and keeping them safe from any harm or disease.

Lastly, I pray for him.  I still don't know why I have grown to love him so much despite of everything and of all the hurts.  Ikaw lang yata nakakaalam Lord bakit I can't bring myself to hate him.  Now that I can't be with him as often as I would like to, please also keep him safe and allow him to be happy with his new love.  You know from the very start, I just want him to find his true happiness.

Thank you Lord for all the blessings.  I am lifting everything to You.

Nice Rings and Some Random Stranger

Today was a more relaxing day at work for me.  I just had a whole day meeting with the other supervisors from our department para sa big event namin on Friday.  I'm excited sa event dahil first time magkakasama ung North and Central Luzon team ko.  Yipee!!!

 

In fairness sakin, I was able to postpone some of the requested reports.  Sabi ko next week na lang dahil I really have to focus on the upcoming event.  I'm going to teach "Powerpoint Presentation Skills".  My, oh my, pressure.  Syempre I have to practice what I preach.  First time ko rin 'to ituturo so kahit medjo alanganin ako, I really have to look and appear credible sa audience.  *Goodluck talaga sakin*

 

Anyway, one of the sales directors, who requested a report today, thanked me for the support I'm giving daw to his area.  Ang bongga nia, sabi nia, "You are my hero".  Kahit alam kong medyo bola yun, nakakawala pa rin ng pagod.  At least I know that someone is really appreciating all my efforts.  Hopefully yang mga ganyang bola eh magtransform sa good year-end evaluation ulit.  ( Kaching! kaching!)  Pero syempre mahirap pa rin mag-expect.  Quota na ko sa paasa lang moments.  ***Shuuuu bad vibes!****

 

At dahil ako ang queen of report rejection today, umuwi ako ng maaga!!!  I went to the mall to look for a really nice dress para sa event.  Kaso sa puyat ko siguro, kahit ang dami ng sinukat ko, wala kong feel na bilin.  I don't want to look super bongga kasi pero I want to look nice for the pictures. I will just try again tomorrow and hopefully may mabili na ko.  Although kanina, what I bought is this really nice set of rings from Forever 21.  Love at first sight talaga, tapos nung sinuot ko na, pak na pak!  So kahit hindi ko talaga need, go ako sa counter para bilin agad, bago pa magbago ang isip ko. hahahaha. Iniisip ko na lang reward ko yan for the stressful week. 

 

 

Pag labas ko ng Glorietta, I was super hungry na so I ate at Teriyaki Boy.   Dati I really don't like eating alone.  As in naiiyak ako pag ginagawa ko yun, kaso sa work ko, I eventually got used to it.  So I ate alone kanina, "me time" lang talaga.  Super quiet and peaceful lang ng feeling ko.  Parang I'm recharging physically.  It was a nice random experience except for the fact na sa sobrang nag-eenjoy ako, ako na lang pala ang tao at nahiya naman ako. So I hurriedly asked for the bill so the crew there could go home na rin.

While I was on my home, some random stranger followed me, when I looked at him, sabi nia: "Makati Ave.  Can you teach me how to go to Makati Ave?".  Syet.  Di ko alam.  So I just said, "I suggest you just ride a cab,  it will be a really long walk if you just decide to walk".  I pointed a cab and smiled sweetly. Bait-baitan lang.  Tapos sabi nia, "Thank you, you have a really nice smile by the way".  Buti na lang mukha syang mabait kundi nagpanic na siguro ko.  I should never really talk to strangers pa rin.  Marami pa kong pangarap sa buhay. 

My Work/Inspiration Board

I need a laptop table.  Para pag nagwowork ako sa condo, I have somewhere to place my laptop and hindi lang sa lap ko kasi minsan umiinit sya.  I remembered Malen has one small laptop table, I tried borrowing it kaso hindi ko feel magwork dun eh. Then I remember Adrian's drawing board.  In our house sa Bulacan, I always borrow that board whenever I want to work in my bed.  So I fixed my small bag and hit the mall.  That's what I love about living in Makati, super convenient if you suddenly want to buy something or crave for anything. 

Syempre dahil nga super kilala ko ng best friend ko, she told me that I was just procrastinating and delaying my work.  My point naman sya kaso I really need something para mapush ko ung sarili kong magwork na. Tska dahil matagal napahinga ang creative juices ko (which I usually use before to think of surprises for someone special), I needed some outlet para mapractice ko naman sya.

When it comes to creativeness, I need materials first before thinking of something.  I'm not the type who thinks of ideas first then buy what she needs.  Ako, I usually go to National and check-out materials that I can use before I can think of what to do.  So while I was there, I bought the drawing board.  While I was looking at it, I saw the colorful papers, so I also bought a lot to cover the drawing board.  I was satisfied na sana but I passed by Tronix at Greenbelt so I thought of having some pictures printed para I can also put it on the drawing board to serve as my inspirations for working.  While I was browsing my phone, ang dami kong gustong ipaprint, then I thought baka kaya kong punuin ng pictures ung board.  I've always love taking pictures and I've always wanted a photo wall. I was super duper excited and kilig for this project.  =D

I love the colors that I used to cover the drawing board.  Its..ahmmm..so me..hahahaha.. Kaso it turned out konti pa rin pala napaprint kong pictures.  Note to self: get more pictures printed.  Super excited na mapuno ko ng maraming maraming maraming pictures tong board.

Cheers to more pictures and more awesome memories!!

PS:  Yes, I also finished my reports and was able to send it before midnight. hihihi

How my Best Friends Describe Me



Last weekend, Malen and I had this conversation sa Viber.  We were arguing discussing about love and commitment.   No one will ever dare question our closeness but when it comes to love, we are always on the opposite side of the situation and we really have different opinions on how to go about our respective relationships.

 

Yeah, for me that's love.. loving someone more than you love yourself.. so compromise is just one step behind of giving your all.  Pero I don't always compromise agad.  Actually, most of the time, I fight for what I think is right and best muna.  Kaso pag di umubra at masisira na totally ang relationship, then comes compromise.   

 

But one this is for sure, I'm never afraid to get hurt, basta give lang ng give.  Loka-loka lang ang peg kasi nga hatest question ko ang "what if".  Sabi ni Malen baka daw magkaiba kasi kami ng up-bringing.  Well siguro nga factor un.  Baka kaya I'm so brave to get hurt kasi I was showered of so much love and I know na I will never be sagad-to-the-bones-lonely kasi I will always have the most awesome family and friends behind me. Super blessed lang talaga.

 

 

 

While browsing naman our yearbook, ngayon ko lng ulit nabasa 'tong super witty write-up of Roanne about me.  As in tawa ko ng tawa when I read it again.  Mind her words:  fascinatingly unique, naughty but nice, engaging personality, absolute dedication, sugar spice and just about everything in between.  Nakakableed ng nose pero seryosong nakakataba ng puso at kaluluwa.

 

Sana kahit ilang years pa ang dumaan, when I ask her kung ako pa rin tong nasa description nia, sana she'll always say "yes" pa rin.



Cai naman gave me an unexpected letter na late ko na nabasa dahil I rarely read my personal email.  Sabi nia:

I don't get really mushy with things like this with you very often but yeah I will right now - I am damn lucky you're one of my bestfriends :) I really couldn't imagine life without you and malen and roanne. Thank you so much!! You deserve all the blessings that God is giving you right now because you're a wonderful and very loving person. I like how you would always see the good in every person and in every situation. I actually admire your inner strength, despite all the struggles you've been through you've manage to always come out really strong! :)

 

 

I must be doing something right in my life to deserve friends like these three lovely ladies.

  

A Productive Day (outside work)

Today I woke up thinking whether or not I should go home to Bulacan.  The sun is already up despite the warnings that it's signal number 2 in Manila (God bless the people in Visayas who are greatly affected by the storm) .  Actually, ang iniisip ko lang kanina is san ako makakapagwork but at the same time mapapahinga din ako.  Then my best friend, Malen asked me if I wanted to go with her to pick-up her dress and also find winter clothes.  I know I have some reports needed to be done but I said "yes, para may magawa naman akong iba aside from work".  Sabi nia, "yun din dapat sasabahin ko".  Yes, yes, my best friend knows me so well.  She even said she didn't talk to me the other night because super halata na I'm really tired, magsusungit lang daw ako.  Thankfully, we know each other too well to make tantsa of those kinds of moments.

We went to the couturier but unfortunately, the dress didn't fit her well so we were not able to take home the dress because they still need to make some adjustments.  This is really sad because this is probably the nth time that Malen went there thinking na super ok na ung dress.  Anyway, mas sayang naman if she just settle for less. 

We went to Cartimar afterwards to look for a store named "Winterhouse".  But before finding "winterhouse", we have to look for Cartimar first.  We both didn't know how to get there.  All I know is it is some place in Manila where you can buy shoes.  So we just went to LRT Buendia then asked the guard there if we still need to ride the LRT but thankfully there's a jeep na from there to Cartimar.  True enough, when we got there super daming shoes.  Malen said its mga Class A daw.  We found "winterhouse", its not malamig but they really have a variety of winter clothes.  Malen was able to buy a lot like 2 jackets, 2 gloves, 2 bonnets and a scarf.  Super good deal na for the price that she paid. 

We ate at Glorietta and passed by Payless to checkout some boots.  This may be Malen's lucky day because we found a really nice boots to go with the clothes she bought.  Buti na lang we didn't buy the one in Winterhouse kasi mas cheap and mas stylish ung nasa Payless.  Another good deal.

After fixing my clothes sa condo, I went outside again to get my nails done.  I tried the newly opened Posh nails near the condo.  I love the purple and pink theme of the place, super girly and relaxing.  I was also surprised to find out that Posh nails is much cheaper pa than Nail It in Glorietta.  I'm super happy that I have nice nails again. 

 

Then to make my day more productive, I cooked some veggies for my dinner.  I seldom cook but buttered veggies are among my favorite dishes that I can actually cook.  Super simple lang but I really like it especially the broccoli and cauliflowers. 

Super proud of myself because the only thing I did for work today is to send 2 text message to answer my team's question about a report. 

A day without pressure from work is just what I badly needed to recharge myself for the coming weeks.  =)