My Dislocated Knee Accident

Last Saturday, I experienced one of the most physically painful day in my life by far.

Gano kasakit? 

Get my pain of being heart broken last 2012

multiply it by 10

SUPER DUPER SAKIT!


I cannot exactly describe how it happened.  We were just about to leave for my move in Pangasinan, when I realized PotPot's keys are missing so I called someone from the office to teach me how to turn off the alarm as I plan to drive the car with the duplicate keys without remote.  I was trying to reach the red alarm button sa may ilalim ng manibela while I was squatting outside the car, by the driver's seat (gets nio?), basta yun na yun. I made a wrong twist while I was on squat position and boom, naiwan na yung right knee cap ko sa gilid.  I was freaking scared and it is sooooo painful. 

Good thing Adrian has presence of mind and was able to bring our family car out in just a couple of minutes.  It took all my strength to move from the pick-up to our family car for Adrian to be able to bring me to the hospital.  While outside the hospital, I was screaming because of so much pain already.  They were trying to get me out the car to the wheelchair so they can get me x-rayed.  But by that time, the pain was almost doubled already.  One of the doctors had to go outside and assure me that he will hold the leg for me (because every inch hurts). 

Next challenge was to get me from the wheel chair to the x-ray bed.  By that time, ubos na ubos na ang lakas ko.  It took me mga 15 minutes, 10 tries and 5 different strategies to get myself to that bed.  Hindi na ko nagpatulong pa kahit kanino because super sakit na talaga at napakabagal tumalab ng pain killer.

Super swerte ko pa rin kasi when the x-ray person tried to straighten out my leg for the x-ray, bumalik na sa katinuan ang pasaway na tuhod ko.  Had I known ganon lang dapat gawin, sana kanina ko pa ginawa. 

I was so relieved to see Mama pagbukas na pagbukas ng x-ray room.  Sobra sobrang pain na ang naramdaman ko in just an hour!

Wala na sila kelangan gawin because when the x-ray came out, everything seems to be in the right place already.  Thank God wala naman nakitang fracture or anything.  We were sent home immediately.  Nakatulog ako agad because of pagod from the pain.

Later in the afternoon that day, mas masakit pa yung ulo ko because of pain reliever kesa sa tuhod ko.  Hilong hilong hilo ko.  Bow.

A Silent Sanctuary

There have been some announcements from the higher management in my office regarding my work locations.  It's not like they gave me a lot of options, but it is something I would need to confirm about. When they first told me about it, I gave them a big and resounding "NO".  But they were very mapilit and kept on telling me that I am their "best" and they need to send me to a region where they can maximize my skills.  Sounds so selfish of them.  I felt so alone, except for Nina who has been helping to get my points raised.

Nakakaloka to think about it. There are even days when I wanted to scream and just cry.  I just felt that I was being punished for working hard because all other supervisors had the option to choose where they want to be assigned and I am left with no choice.

UNFAIR.

Then B skipped classes and brought me to this special place in Tarlac.  The road to get there is not for someone who is just starting to learn how to drive, it is rough and steep.  Good thing our PotPot is new and very reliable. 

The place is such a silent sanctuary where you could sincerely pray and "feel" His answers.  As for me, I felt that He is again trying to teach me to just have a leap of faith and to trust that His plans are always better than mine. 

 

I know in the His right time,  I will have the answers to my questions.